Although the mere words “I am sorry” can not convey the remorse I feel for my actions live on Motiv8 on Thursday night, unfortunately these are the only words I have. I apologise 100% unreservedly and I ask for your forgiveness. Many times over the past couple of days I have asked myself if I could be forgiving in this situation and my honest answer to that is I don’t know.
There is no excuse for my behaviour and I will not try to make an excuse or justify my behaviour in anyway shape or form. I know I have hurt and upset many people that I classed as close friends in this incident and I understand if people cant forgive.
Many times over the past few years, those who are closest to me have told me things, things that I want to share with you. They have said, that when I am sober and not drinking I am a nice, decent and likeable chap but when I start drinking I quickly turn in to the rambling ranting lunatic that caused so much offence on Thursday. Don’t get me wrong, I am not looking for sympathy and I am definitely not making an excuse but I want to explain that finally I have realised that there is a problem and I am taking steps to remedy this.
I want to apologies to Davey, Justin and everyone else who has worked so hard on this website. You have built us a home that doesn’t deserve to be treated the way I treated it and the patrons of Motiv8 the other night.
I wish The Dragons and Motiv8 all the best in the future and maybe one day I will return to Motiv8 but not until my problems are resolved.
My love and respect to you all.
STRENGTH & HONOUR